Visto come giustamente qualcuno mi ha fatto notare, torno ad aggiornare il LiveJournal.

Cancellerò questo post fra qualche giorno già che ci sono, tanto. Più scrivo più m'incazzo.

Perché alla fine è sempre così. Sogni per qualche ora, giorno, mese. Poi capita che ad un certo punto gli altri ti riportano giù dalle nuvole e ti sbattono la testa contro il cemento. E poi ti chiedi dove cazzo sei.

Tre giorni fa ero contenta. Vacanza, sentivo le mie amiche ogni giorno, mi riposavo, speravo in quello che sarebbe successo.

Ora è praticamente l'inferno. Ma dopottutto è la realtà, cosa mi aspettavo anch'io eh. Se mi metto le fette di salame davanti agli occhi funziona così. Mi sta bene. Così magari la prossima volta mando affanculo tutto e faccio il cazzo che voglio io. Ma tanto non sarebbe cambiato niente. Ero una fallita, lo sono e lo rimarrò. Perché é così che la gente vuole, ed è così che sono nata. Pazienza.
Vorrei solo non essere gelosa. Essere indifferente ed andare avanti. Ma non riesco, quando una cosa è più grande di te è così.

Mi sfogo qui per calmarmi cinque minuti, visto che a casa è praticamente impossibile sfogarmi. È veramente una trappola, dove tutti hanno tutto. Contenta per loro e per quelli che non ascoltano.

Pace. Confidiamo in Dio e il Suo progetto più grande.

YAAAAAAA IS OUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT, the trailer for ''You're Beautiful'' drama is OUUUUT *OOOOOOOOOOOOOO*


Seriouslyyyy, Hong sisters are EPIC XDDDDD Suki looks GREAT, love his hairstyle, makeup and everything ç_ç HongKi is soooo cute and Yonghwa is really handsome ♥ Can't waiiiiit ç_______ç

I don't feel well lately, buh. T_T Today I went to the music room. I practiced ayaka's ''I believe'' and ''Mikazuki'', a bit of lecca's ''Ashita ni Nattara'' and F.T Island ''Women Don't Know''. >_< Fighting!


13 days to ''You're Beautiful''.
41 to D.Gray-man's new chapter.

Ehh my enthusiasm about this blog is already gone LOL. When I want to write something it seems too much for an entry, well well.
Everyone seems so sad lately. Count me in. Don't know what to do, it seems I'm so useless sometimes. Just want to make smile everyone but it's too damn difficult. Meh. The only positive thing I can think about is that I'll start to sing again. School is starting once again and I'll have access to the music room . And I can sing seriously, yaa. It seems age since the last time. ç_ç Can't wait.

It's raining so much. Autumn is killing me already.

Yaa I'm so anxious lately but DAMN >_< I just want to do billion of things >_< I have to find a way to read notes again. When I was little I was so good uff -.- Practice, practice, I need to practice. And last song I composed, oh man, don't even remember when it was. I focused so much on training my voice that I forgot all the rest. Oh well, I'll do something.
My wish to act is coming back yaa. Want want want want XDDDDDDD

Epik High's new album is out and Tablo is a geniuuuus. His English is perfect, hope to reach his level one day.
I discovered that HIMEKA is taking music lessons, and they worked on her new PV and covers. Yaa so happy for her ç_ç
And OMG Hikki has a new boyfrieeeend, best wishes to heeeer.

And? The other day I wrote 20 lines of my fanfic >_< Yukari said it was good but mhhhh I'll continue slowly uff.

More infos about ''You're Beautiful'' drama! So many pics and news about Jang Geun Suki and Park Shin Hye >_< OMG and new pics of HongKi (F.T Island)! They said that at tomorrow's concert only HongKi and Suki will sing, and something like people will compare their voices. I was like -> XDDDDDDDD. HongKi is a master. I love Suki and I know he can do really really well, but I can't wait to hear HongKi. Damn. His voice is great, everyone says to him that even if he's so young his voice is able to be so emotional. Yaa. And people ask me why I sing male songs ù.u

Oh, Tokyo, Tokyo. What should I do? I dream of u.
''Cuz I have a dream, of it. Livin' n' die for this.'' as Tablo singed once.

Useless entry ever. BE HAPPY EVERONE!

19 days to ''You're Beautiful''
46 days to D.Gray-man's new chapter.

Edit:

Isn't Suki soooooo beautiful in my mood pic? HAUHAUAH XD Should I use it in each entry? MHAUAHAUH. Love that pic ç_ç

Yaaaa WATCH OUT! This will probably be a fangirl post HAUAHAUH XDDDDDD Today, it was THE DAY! I waited for like three/four month but FINALLY! Jang Geun Suk released his third digital single *O* Once again for Samsung and its 10th Anniversary. It seems they love him ♥ Who doesn't? Gnahaha XD
I entered MSN today and I read some messages from yukari saying ''OMG SUKI'S NEW SONG IS COOL'' and I was dying XDDDD yahahaha XD Are u curious?? mhauahua:

 

 

Love when he dances hahaha XDDD so cute XD Damn, he can act, sing, RAP, dance XD Ya. P E R F E C T hahaha XD When I first heard it I was like ''Yaa so different'' and listening to it all the day made me soooo addicted. The instrumental is LOVELY, love that kind of happy-but-melancholy sound *OOOOO*
Yesterday I was so depressed and pissed off, today damn he totally made me happy. Well, I had to do some things for school but he was there with me singing ♥ Thinking I'll have a new song from his new drama soon makes meee soooooo excited *OOOO* Thanks Suki ♥

Touch it, drag it and drop it ♥♥

And the ''Touch it'' reminds me so much of ''Touch Holic'' mhuahau *OOOOOOO* I think my ranking goes like this:

1. Touch Holic
2. Just Drag
3. Black Engine

Don't know where to put my favourite song from ''Do re mi fa sol la si do'' and ''Happy Life''. EH. XD Don't know XD Probably ''Touch Holic'' and ''Just Drag'' will still be there, first and second. Oh wait, u don't care right? hahah sorry.

I'M FINALLY WRITING THE PSEUDO FIC *OOOOO* Thanks to yukari who said ''DAMN, write something!'' hahaha XD Well, I was reaaally feeling bad O_O U know when u HAVE to write? If not u'll like explode haha XD it happens all the time when I have a melody in my mind for a song. I HAVE to register it (''not because u'll forget it'' nd someone in my mind). WEEEEEELL XD I've written something like a page and a HALF woooow XD mhauah I know I know it's too little but oh well. yukari said it was quite good so I'm happy *O*

Okay, okay, what else? I'm still listening to ''Just Drag'' so my mind is kinda blank right now hahaha. XD

Some new picsss I loooooooveeeeeee:


Yuya_Lova ò.o I'm every day more like u HUAHAUAH XD

Jaebeom, FIGHTING! ♥ And today, Yunho's first drama has started. Yunho, FIGHTING! ♥

27 days to ''You're beautiful''.
54 days to D.Gray-man's new chapter.

I wanted  to say so many things but my mind is so empty right now ç_ç My poor Jaebeom. I'm so sad. Why people have to ruin someone's life? EVERYBODY knows that he's a great leader and a good person. C'mon. I just hope he'll come back. I support u Jae, I'll wating for u and always pray for u! FIGHTING!

Now, questions about TVXQ from soompi:

Favorite song of all DBSK songs
Ya. Don't know as I said before XD Probably ''Jumon (MIROTIC)'', ''Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou?'' and ''DARKNESS EYES''.

Favorite Korean Ballad Song
''Love in the Ice'' ç_ç I love that song even if it was in Japanese first >_< If it has to be composed by Koreans then ''Hey! Girl''.

Favorite Japanese Ballad Song
''Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou'' ç_ç and ''Love in the Ice'' of course.

Favorite Korean Dance Song
''Jumon (MIROTIC)'' and ''Purple Line'' *O* And ''Aknyeo (Are you A Good girl?'' *O*

Favorite Japanese Dance Song
''Survivor'' *O*

Favorite Summer Song
''Summer Dream'' of course.

Favorite Korean MV
And u ask? ''Jumon (MIROTIC)''. That MV is so hot ç_ç

Favorite Japanese PV
o_o hum o_o hem o_o XDDDDDDD ''Survivor''? XD

OTHER CATEGORIES

Favorite Korean Album
''MIROTIC''. That album is P E R F E C T. Listen to it!

Favorite Japanese Album
Mhh. ''T'' and ''The Secret Code''?

Favorite Korean Concert
I have to watch it but probably he MIROTIC one.

Favorite Japanese Concert
T concert! Yunhie's samurai hair for life ♥


Talking about Korea, on the 11th we'll have the sentence for TVXQ. Always keep the faith ♥

Changing topic, the other day I was talking about movies with my brother and we found out that ''Wolverine'' will have a sequel yeeeee. I didn't watch the movie at theatre 'cause I was studying but OMG that one I'll watch it for sure!
My mother is still obsessed with ''Hero'' hahaha XDDDDDD

And tomorrow ''Heading to the ground'' will start! It's the new drama with Yunho of TVXQ!

I just want to write something lately x_x Don't know why, words just start to create a sentence in my head and I want to describe and describe. Should I start a fic? Ahhhh x_x


29 days to ''You're beautiful''.
57 days to D.Gray-man's new chapter.

Since I really wanted to do it:

Write the top 10 artists from your last.fm page
1. Namie Amuro
2. Utada Hikaru
3. GLAY
4. TVXQ
5. Gackt
6. ORIGA
7. lecca
8. Big Bang
9. Koda Kumi
10. Ayumi Hamasaki

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
Ehh it was thanks to Ghost in the Shell, thus ''Inner Universe'' or ''Rise''. I think ''Inner Universe'' >_<

What is your favorite album of 2?
''ULTRA BLUE'' of course. It has all my favourite songs (and I bought it LOL): ''Be My Last'', ''COLORS'', ''Passion'' yaaaaaaa.

What is your favorite lyric that 4 has sung?
Actually, I don't know. Probably I should say ''Rising Sun'' but I LOVE ''DARKNESS EYES'' even if it is so sad.

How many times have you seen 5 live?
o_o None. I've seen all his tour though, I think. But the last one.

What is your favorite song by 7?
EHHHHHH XDDDDDDDD I don't know. Now, ''Ashita ni Nattara''.

What is a good memory you have involving the music of 10?
She was the third J-Pop singer I discovered. I remember when I was little, I used to listen to Ayu during my walking to the manga shop LOL. I dreamed a lot with her music.

Is there a song of 3 that makes you sad?
A LOT. ''Koi'', ''LAYLA'', ''THINK ABOUT MY DAUGHTER'', ''I'm in Love'' (I still cry every time I watch it live), ''SORRY LOVE'', ''Aitai Kimochi'', ''MIRROR'', ''I will~'', ''Bokutachi no Shouhai''. Most of ''LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL'' album makes me sad, probably that's the reason I don't listen to it much. I love it though, like all their albums. I think ''Aitai Kimochi'' and ''I will~'' makes me sad the most. ''THINK ABOUT MY DAUGHTER'' too, just from the title.

What is your favorite lyric that 2 has sung?
Lyrics? Oh my x_x ''Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro''? I don't know actually, Hikki is so good at writing songs. ''DEEP RIVER'', ''COLORS'', ''Distance'' and ''FINAL DISTANCE'' too.

What is your favorite song by 9?
Yaaaaaaaa who knows XD last. fm says ''Introduction'' from ''Black Cherry'' but I'm not that sure XD I love ''NO TRICKS'' and ''real Emotion'' and ''1000 no Kotoba'' means a lot to me.

How did you get in to 3?
It was Yuya-Lova's fault è_é I wasn't into J-Rock before è_é She said ''Look at Hisashi, yaaaaa he's so cute, isn't he?'' and I fell in love with JIRO *dies* XDDDDDD

What was the first song you heard by 1?
My God who remembers XDDDDDDDD ''Come'' probably?

What is your favorite song by 4?
Uff, I don't knooooow >_< last.fm says ''Jumon (MIROTIC)'' eh. ç_ç I love ''Doushite wo Kimi Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou?'' and ''DARKNESS EYES'' too.

How many time have you seen 9 live?
None x_x

What is a good memory you have involving 2?
Why do u ask! She was my first J-Pop singer *OOOOOO* Her music, well ''COLORS'', introduced me to J-Music. Love u Hikki ♥

Is there a song of 8 that makes you sad?
''Stay'' lately o_o

What is your favorite album of 5?
''MOON'' *OOOO* I bought this too! It have all my favourite songs >_< ''Secret Garden'' should have been there ç_ç

What is your favorite song of 1?
My God >_< last.fm says ''Top Secret'' and ''Come''. Probably ''exist for you'' >_<

What is your favorite song of 10?
''HEAVEN'' >_<

How many times have you seen 8 live?
None uff.

What is your favorite album of 1?
x_x Probably ''STYLE''.

What is a great memory you have considering 9?
She is the second J-Pop singer I discovered. I rememeber when people didn't her, a friends of mine in Japan said to me ''Koda Kumi who?'' XDDDDD Final Fantasy, I'll love u forever ♥

What was the first song you heard by 8?
Oh my O_O ... AH YES! I remember. It was ''Number 1''.

What is your favorite cover by 2?
Cover? XD hum yaa probably ''Playback'' by Momoe Yamaguchi.

Yaaaa, yesterday I re-watched ''Hero'' with my mother (Glod bless Swiss TVs LOL) and she liked it even if I think she didn't understand the whole story LOLOL XDDDD Did u ever see it? It's great! Love the colors, music, the storyline and man, the actors are soooooooooooo good. The changes from red, blue, white, green and white again are beautiful. Zhang Yimou u're a genious.



Takeshi in there reminds me of my Geun Suk ♥
U don't know who Geun Suk (Suki from now on) is? IHHHH XD
Well, ask if u wanna. I'll do the countdown to his next drama in this journal LOL XD A drama with Lee HongKi of F.T Island is like a dream u know?? ç_ç It will start on the 7th of October and I KNOW I'll die 'cause Hong sister are the creators and they did ''Hong Gil Dong'', my first Suki's drama. EH. I screamed at every episode. They tried to kill him TWICE. I was like -> O________________O NUOOOOOOOO


He's the one with long hair *dies* He looks like Kanda Yu of D.Gray-man ç______ç I mean, if u don't know me I have four main loves in my life:

• Asian Music
• Kanda/D.Gray-man
• Final Fantasy
• Fantasy books

Inside there (somewhere) u find Geun Suk and Yunho and all my lovers LOL XDDDDDD However, the new drama is called ''You're Beautiful'':

He's the first one from left of course, the last one is HongKi ♥ (the middle one is Yonghwa). And damn he, lately he's so cool:

Okay, okay I'll stop XDDDDDDD DAMN he's so cool in black XDDDDDD *dies* It took me always sometimes to be used of his new hairstyle but WOW this one just suits him.
On soompi they're saying they'll probably do a MINI CONCERT. Man A CONCERT. Suki is back to sing ç_ç I'm actually going to cry.

Eh eh, let's change topic, I mean, I'd probably talk about him for three pages. LOL

I'm finishing ''Nodame Cantabile'' right now. After ''Beethoven Virus'' (always with Suki LOL) I really wanted to continue watching a drama focused on music and this one is pretty good, even if it focuses more on the love story and has more funny parts. ''Beethoven Virus'' was so serious, I loved it.
I didn't watch so many things. I mean:

 

Japanese

• Gokusen 2 and 3
• Suppli
• Tatta Hitotsu no Koi
• Nobuta wo produce (started, never finished LOL)
• Hana yori dango 1 (have to watch the second one, I'll, promise)
• Nodame Cantabile (still watching)

Korean

• Goong S (started)
• Hong Gil Dong
• Beethoven Virus

Taiwan

• Brown Sugar Macchiato
• The Leggend of Brown Sugar Chivalries (still watching)

Ehh, man O_O only these? I thought there were more but actually I think it's all LOL. Well I didn't count idols' mini dramas and variety shows ò.o XD All idols dramas *dies* XD ''Hong Gil Dong'' is probably my favourite, damn, fighting, good story and Suki: perfect XD. ''Beethoven Virus'' is great too. Should I post a movie list? Actually, I don't remember all the Asian movies I've seen o_o XDDDDD Well, who cares?

Anyone cares to recommend some dramas? No love story only please XD I need action XD

Chu chu

32 days to ''You're Beautiful''
60 days to D.Gray-man's new chapter.